Walking Around (10/23/08)

Neruta seems tired of his world. Not only is he tired of himself from a personal standpoint, but he condemns the world he lives in. It seems that he is struggling with his present world. He is pessimistic of his life and his every day. However, he humors himself and secretly imagines himself doing something outrageous, something out of his ordinary existence, something that would shock and "scare a notary public". This could be a yearning and desire for notoriety. His present life is aimless with no sense for a future. He is lonely and is not comfortable with his surroundings. I feel that what really is bothering him is his "walk" with no purpose. Perhaps this feeling of not having a purpose is what is making him depressed.